Holy Mackeral! I didn't know fish were religious!!

WI feel accomplished with school as of late because I have made more time to focus on it.  Work has suffered a little.  I really need to get out of that job.  The other two guys serve a purpose..I just serve as the "get me" girl.."I need this..get me that..I want, I need"...ALL DAMN DAY.  They just think I dont' have anything to do so they give me new task or things to do around the office..and I just look at them and say.."sure..I'll put it on my list that is already the size of TEXAS!!"...

*breathe*

Any who..
I have maintained my 9 lb loss (woot!) and I will honestly say that is only from food portion control lately.  I watch what I eat and write it all down.  I am bad more often than I should and splurge on y points but I am good for keeping in my 50 pt allowance.  I need recipies that are fast and easy that I can come home from work and make quickly and be doing homework by 7 or 730 (I get home at 6pm usually).  Next Tuesday I have a dr appt with a new doc. Going to get some outside help and get back on meds I was taking that helped me out dearly (no not weight loss meds).

More important things tho!!

My weight loss this month so far has made me shoot for at least 5 lbs by end of the month.  If I can keep a steady 5lbs a month I'll be down by DragonCon!  Thats shooting way way low.  But I like to make super attainable goals but feeling awesome when I surpass them.  Hey ..it's motivation. I'll take it :)

So I decided for my costume I want to be somewhat of a huntress..not so much a safari hunt or world of warcrafty one but along the lines of steampunk.  Thanks to Miss Zwen, she suggested I go to this Etsy store: http://www.etsy.com/shop/damselinthisdress

I love this corset!! The pants too but methinks with some help (and another fine suggestion from Zwen) that I could make these pants myself.  I just like this look all together. So I am shooting for something similar. 

#1:

Alligator material rocks for the huntress bit :)

#2:

I also like these pairings and picture with some lace up boots or some cute pointy toe boots.  This one goes with more of the steampunk western theme.  Get me some hot goggles and some steampunky sidearms...this would rock:

Awesome Bolero

Cute Bloomers

I hope everyone has a great rest of the week!! Tune in next time to "As the nerd turns"!

Decisions: When are you considered selfish?

Evening nerd herd!

Today I am struggling with an inner dilemma.  I have said to a few of you that I would love the thought of moving back to Tennessee.  I could be closer to friends and family which would be so great to have.  But on the flip side I kinda feel that I am pushing Joe and Linda out the door before giving it second thought.
Now, don't get me wrong..I have asked over and over if this is something they wanted also.  I have pried and picked their brains searching for reasons not to move.
So far I have gotten ok responses but when Joe says "She wants to be close to her family." It sounds like he's just doing it for me and not really putting in his 2 cents.

Pros of moving:
I would be closer to a large percentage of my family.
We both would have a good opportunity having equal (and higher pay - well it would be the same for me).
I would get to be around my family a few years before we had to move on for a job in the industry (my job - game concepts and model creation jobs - are generally located coastal regions.  Not so much IN or TN).

Cons:
Linda has to have her foot operated on due to her having a deteriorating foot.
Linda would have to jump through hoops to get set up on social security again.
I would be putting them in a new place and I dont know how well they'd adapt.

Im just ready to be out of this state. I dont really care for Indiana.  Tennessee is gorgeous.  Im over this flat, land locked piece of rock.

At what point do I need to accept their answers as true - that this is what they want to do.
When do I stop feeling guilty from "taking them away" from comfort zone?
I guess it will all work itself out in time.  And if it doesn't then we'll just find a new apartment here I suppose.

Thanks for the ear.
Lend me your thoughts, Id like to hear your side.

Week 3 - Digging out of a Rut

Well last week was week 2 of weight watchers.  Man I killed my diet... BAD.  I splurged on lunch half the week last week and it wasn't healthy stuff.  I ate ok breakfasts and what not but lunch time was my downfall.  I tried to correct the issue by going to the store.  I stocked up on sandwich meat and wheat whole-grain bread.   I bought some wheat thins, hummus, fiber granola bars (the Kellogg's fiber plus ones rock!) and some water.
I tried to cover every craving I could possibly have and tried to get something healthy.  I added the points calculator on my phone so I can tally up points just about anywhere.  Some things take a bit more research but its still very handy!
I truly want to reach my goal weight by my 30th birthday.  A year and a half.  I think I owe it to myself.  I need to be healthy.  This is my personal choice.  I want to have a long happy and healthy life.

So luckily after eating healthy the other half of the week and watching my portions, I only gained 1 lb.  Its' still a set back though.  It was last week that I had my realization that yes I can eat what I want ....within reason but it also has been an eye opener that I need to start making better food choices when I go out.  Grilled over breaded, veggies over pasta or fries, vinaigrettes over cream-based dressings.

So far this week I have managed to eat below my allotted points for the day.  I am debating on starting my exercise routine either at the gym ( I have a membership but kinda stopped going ...ok did stop going..) or do I just want to do a quick 30 on the elliptical at the apartment's "fitness center".  I suppose I could save myself a little money by choosing the latter.

Alot of people have suggested this PX90 thing.  Thats great and all but I really dont feel like spending hundreds of dollars on dvd's, equipment and etc.   If I had a spare room with a tv...great but that isnt a luxury I have right now.  My friend has offered I go to the gym with him but I think he's all about weight lifting for 2 hours...I don't think I need that.  I need cardio to get my heart rate up and blood pumping!
I want more than anything a personal trainer.  My gym has them..but they want an insane amount of money...not to mention that they made me feel that my weight loss wouldn't happen effectively without them.  I beg to differ.

So for now, I have made myself a small schedule to see how it fits in between work./school.  Im gonna start Tues, Thurs Saturday - 30 minutes on the elliptical and then I will start fleshing out my workouts with the weight watchers work out activities.   I may take up belly dancing class w rachel :)

Anywho, I will report my progress here.  Here's hoping to be down some weight by DragonCon.  My doctor says realistic weight loss is 3lbs per month.   Which kinda surprises me..but hey if I can lose a bit more per month I'd be ok with that :)